March 9th, 2010 . No Comments » So, now it has started. Dropped a medicine bottle on the floor in the morning (hard to keep things as your fingers are numb) and when I sat on the floor and picked tablets, I saw lots of hair, which was significantly longer Vickan (my adorable little dog) so I pulled her fingers through his hair and got a handful.
Suspect is already Monday evening that there was something going on because I had a tingling sensation in the scalp, approximately the same as I have at your fingertips.
Could well actually comb through the hair to remove all loose but I'm home alone right now so I do not dare ... Waiting for her husband comes home so I get some support because I do not know how much that will. How much and how fast you lose is, of course individually.
Tags: hair, loss of March 8th, 2010 . 1 Comment » Now I have in all cases started as small to fuss with it again by a little shop 
A Handy Clip, pearls, rhinestones and most beautiful butterflies I have ever seen it was from Scrapmoment. Thanks Hellen for candy bag!
I actually have a little fuss over the past week. Doing a mini album to be given as a wedding gift. Good thing the wedding is not before in the summer with the pace I agree
The wound feels better today but I have a stomach ache because I thought I was feeling so good today so I attacked the kitchen - not a good idea ... But now the benches and cupboard doors in all cases, clean!
This week it happens not so much testing in the morning and then reschedule picclinen on Thursday.
Tags: bit, shopped March 6th, 2010 . 2 Comments » 
This was the solid dark brown. You who know how my hair looks now know how brave I was - NOT
Thus, it is so close to my haircut there can be but it feels good because I recognize myself.
Well, not really for me as I cut off 15 cm in the other day, thought I would take it a bit on the po po. But as it looked a week ago, anyway.
Surgical wound has almost healed, still a bit fluid. Was completely dry but when I finished with penicillin and received cytotoxic chemotherapy began again. Can not have any protection on it anymore because I managed to develop an allergy to the dressing - it is not the one it is the second ...
Hands and feet are numb to cytostatikan, feels like the fingertips are frozen and that if I go on a nail carpet. Hope it does not get worse the next round.
Picclinen rescheduled. Not common with piccline on my little medical center. Two nurses who did it, one that read, step by step instructions and one who did it But it was good!
Tags: retrieved, wig February 25th, 2010 . 3 Comments » So, when it was finished. Doing fairly well, just a bit "dull".
Had two medications for adverse reactions caused by celllgifterna and one of the side effects caused by one of the medicines for side effects. Does the fact it is so strange that it will be fun
Will see how I feel tomorrow onwards, has of course a lot of adverse reactions to "look forward". Nausea, pain and hair loss naturally. Some transient side effects caused by kortisonet can also appear but they are rapidly reversible.
The husband was reading a great post, and think it sounds a bit nice. He has been through the whole journey and know exactly how I feel. So the above is pure fact what actually happened today - here comes the reality:
I feel appalling, hate cancer and the thought of losing her hair scares the shit out of me.
Tags: chemotherapy, complete February 16th, 2010 . No Comments » Today, they took away the last 6 aGraff (stitches). Not that it was healed, but because they suspect they may hamper the healing process because they now been a month. So now held together with only the cut patches - Huga.
Third pencillinkuren stub - this time a double dose ... They also took samples of crop response and referral for the ultrasound is sent. They suspect that I have a decent collection was under the skin as it bubbles up when they press on your stomach.
They will try to arrange so that I can take ultrasound on Thursday while I am in the hospital for chemotherapy. If it now becomes a cytotoxic because the cut would not heal.
Tomorrow it's time to try a wig - surely jättefina but nothing I look forward to like. Is as definite in any way.
Tags: agafferna, gone February 10th, 2010 . No Comments » The stitches are still there and new pencillinkur stub. That there can never go according to plan 
Tags: tiring February 4th, 2010 . No Comments » Stubborn inflammation that was, is still 7 stitch (klammrar) left. However, penicillin is not final yet so it'll work out for sure.
This afternoon I'll try out a wig. 'll Go for a little tougher hairstyle so I can feel a bit safer. Also consider taking a bit brighter than my own hair because I am due to anemia is incredibly pale.
18: it is time for cytostatikan. They put picclinen same day so I do not have to go back and forth, which feels good.
Tags: left, stitch February 3rd, 2010 . 3 Comments » It was the iofs 2 weeks ago but I have been podium since then because I had so desperately bad. Not only did my stomach hurt, surgical wound has inflamed too ... So I eat now penicillin and 23 of the 28 stitches remaining.
Thankfully, my gut alone, there were only 2 mm margin of healthy tissue, but the surgeon did it. So incredibly talented they are.
They also took the ovaries which was lucky as it had begun to spread there. So to prevent further spread, it is time for week 7 new round of chemotherapy agents. The worst of the new cytostatikan is that I will lose all the hair.
I'll try out a wig tomorrow and after that I will cut my long hair. When I start losing my hair, it will be shaving directly. I cut myself because I think it's a bit easier to drop short hair.
The hair feels really tough. The thought in my simplicity that I would avoid the sort cytostaika but the cancer did other things.
Tags: complete, operation January 17th, 2010 . 1 Comment » In order to stop bleeding and pain they must now remove the uterus. Since they do not know how much radiation is destroyed, it will gut the surgeon to stand ready to take over if needed. So I do not know if I wake up with stoma or not but it is certainly good!
PET scan showed no cellular activity at the basin as well, but hopefully it was just very active cells and not cancer cells. But it gives good answers to tomorrow's surgery.
After the operation, it will be more chemotherapy. Just hope that even this round is the type of chemotherapy you will not lose hair because of there is time to cut (has long hair now and imagine that it feels better to lose the short hair)
I will most likely not to know anything because I will have both an epidural and general anesthetic Spinal anesthesia can I get that I should not have so much pain afterwards.
No new fuss to show up for the simple reason that I do not fuss over a long time. Is in a small vacuum and do nothing.
So, a few hours carries it away to Lund again. Bye!
Tags: day, of, surgery December 10th, 2009 . 2 Comments » Now, my doctor along with surgeons examined the results of X-ray and they believe that surgery is probably the best option now. I'm going back to Lund next week for a new investigation under general anesthesia (9: the time I sovs since it started, begin to have routine) and then surgeons should also be present to take the absolute final decision.
Since the tumor is active, it's spread from the point of view good to get rid of it but unfortunately it is not just the tumor removed ... Everything around it can spread to be removed so the result is stoma and artificial bladder (the second, I will not miss ). But as my son put it - better to have a mother with bag on his stomach than no mother at all, lucid and wise son!
The feeling when I found out it is the same as when I was told I had cancer - total emptiness. When you go home and feel fairly good and crisp morphine so it is easy to repress the fact is seriously ill. Too bad they have to remind me far too often, of course thrive so well in my little bubble ... Even when I write about it so it feels sometimes as if it's myself I write about - the reality is a bit too much effort to deal with sometimes.
Tags: clearance, from, grove 
